-- The Following text is small rant/vent of how I feel right now so if you don't feel like reading just enjoy the drawing c: The real drawing description is bellow the rant c: ---
I just don't know anymore. Is it worth it or not. I've been trying for years but... nothing...
...not even near what I was hoping for... Some people get it as a gift from above. I ain't got that luck. And then comes this new thing in my life which forces me to decide to start allover or not. This question kills me slowly and painfully.
But here's the other problem that made me do all this. I don't want my 2010 problem to become again which I was reminded of earlier today. They just dissapear. When they are not connected they just fade... And it started to begin again not so long ago when I lost something. Not completely lost but still is kinda fading. I've got that thing since 3 years ago and just because of that fading I completely lost it for 1.5 years. All I've got right now is a handpile of hope that is slowly falling apart just as someone I know predicted. I can't take the presure and I might snap. And when that happens I only get more problems. It's raining outside and that kinda relaxes me. I just need some rest. I won't leave it. I won't lose this little hope I've got. Because it's not worth it loosing the little I've got. I won't blame. I don't blame. And I didn't blame. Don't get me wrong. It's not their fault. All of my worries are all my fault. I just feel depressed and my writing all this I just kill the pain. 2010 sadly. I was hoping this sun won't rise in my land again. I'll need to start a new jorney again which will be accompanied with loneliness and pain. I'll need to do this on my own.
If you read all this then you deserve this cookie I don't need it, you can have it c: And if you noticed that each and every sentence is not finished and it's hiding a special meaning in it then congrats my friend, you deserve a medal. Don't feel bad for me, I'll be fine. I just needed to express my feelings.
OK I'm done. I just felt like sharing my feelings c:
-------------------------------------------------------Who knew that depression can cure my art block :"D
I actually feel ALOT better after I finished the drawing c:
BECAUSE I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HOW THE BG TURNED OUT :"D
But otherwise the drawing is ugly itself c:
Anyway enjoy the drawing c:
Dikata (c) Me
Art (c) Me